Love on the Line
"There is nothing I am less good at than love. I am far better in competition than in love. I am far better at responding to my instincts & ambitions to get ahead & make my mark than I am at figuring out how to love one another.I am schooled & trained in inquisitive skills, in getting my own way.And yet, I decide, every day, to set aside what I can do best & attempt what I do clumsily - open myself to the frustrations & failures of loving...
All that is hazardous work; I live on the edge of defeat all the time. I have never done any of those things to my (or anyone else's) satisfaction. The Psalm, though, is not about hazards but about help. The hazardous work of discipleship is not the subject of the psalm but only the setting. The subject is help..."
Eugene Peterson
Each morning when I get up I have to place most of me aside & ask God to give me his love for people. Some days are better than others, but I am still his work in progress. I know he loves me.